We have chosen to homeschool our kids.
Noah would not have married me if I had not been willing to homeschool.
I am not going to back down.
We really feel like this is what is right for our family.
But sometimes I get a strong preschool mom envy.
I let my mind wander to what my life would be like if I had sent the boys to preschool.
And if I was sending Deacon to Kindergarten in the fall.
I would have 2-3 mornings a week in which to clean, do errands etc with LESS KIDS!
My, but that would be amazingly productive.
In the fall Deke would be gone every morning AND I wouldn't have to be fitting school in at home amongst the needs of 2 other children.
I am pretty sure my house would be cleaner.
I am pretty sure I would have more "me" time.
I am pretty sure I would have less complicated grocery excursions.
But you know what?
I like being home with them.
And I love teaching Deke about Abraham Lincoln.
And about Daniel Boone.
And that Texas Roadhouse isn't really the name of the state- it is a restaurant. It's just Texas, Deke.
And I will plod on. With toys all over the backyard, stacks of homeschool materials in the closets, American history in my head and an entourage in the grocery aisles.
I will try to let my preschool mom envy go.
I will try.