Give me permission to not serve?
The last couple of weeks have been busy ones.
My next couple will be busier still.
I am codirecting preschool VBS and am in charge of the preschool crafts for the week. One of my main people just had a close relative pass away and she is going to be gone.
I am scrambling a little.
And my baby just turned three months. And my 3 boys need to be taken out to run. And work has gotten busy. And my house has gotten messy. And my first tri is complete, but the next one is looming.
I get asked, "why are you doing VBS, SS etc with all your children?" But why not? Does having a lot of kids give you permission to not bring a snack to your kid's teeball team? Does having a lot of kids give you permission to not be useful at church? Does having a lot of kids mean that you shouldn't bring a meal to someone who needs it? Does it mean that you should be off the hook for volunteering? Does it mean you should put sharing the love of God on hold until your family grows?
Having 1 kid, 2 kids, 3 kids, 4 kids, 5 kids, 6 kids should not be a get out of jail free card. It should not mean that we shouldn't have to do anything else or benefit society in any other way.
The time for doing good, for being useful is there, in our lives, we just have to eliminate the non-useful, time wasting things.
How we spend our time shows what we really think is important. I don't think it can lie.
People say to look at how you spend your money to see what you value. And that is true, but I think that how you spend your time is more telling.
Sometimes that can be really depressing.
I do a lot of things, but there are days that I look back thinking "what have I even done today? I wasted time that didn't need to be wasted."
But I will keep trying.
And keep evaluating what I think is important.
We are not on this earth to be selfish, but to be useful.
And the ultimate goal should be to bring glory to the Creator of the Universe.
Lord, help me to be useful.